I had grand plans for today (March 31st ‘22) of writing about my meditations from 1st Peter 5. I have been reading that passage of Scripture a lot lately because it deals with “Elders” and their relationship to the church. I wanted to encourage the pastors who read my Substack because we can all use the encouragement. I know that I do.
But as I got started to write this morning the “fog” rolled into my mind. I cannot really describe it other than my mind gets cloudy and I cannot concentrate. It is very annoying and can last for awhile. It is very aggravating because along with this fog is the lack of energy to do anything. A feeling of apathy. Some have told me that it is a symptom of anxiety/depression etc. Either way I have a doctors appointment to start sorting all this mess out.
Do any of you experience this sort of thing? If so and you want to share then please do. I was telling some friends last night that it’s like a train wreck. The engine has slammed into something on the track and the train cars are all crashing into each other in succession until they reach the engine. That is what’s happening to me - all the stress and hurt over the past 20 years has caught up to me - and I am having a hard time navigating this train wreck. Especially with what happened to my wife last year.
1st Peter 5:7 says “casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.” I have been leaning on this truth for awhile now. Everyday I have cried out to God for healing and relief. I cast my anxiety on Him because He cares for me. My God loves me. And yes, it does help. I do find comfort in God’s Word and promises.
So maybe this was an encouragement after all for someone today. As I write about and confront the hurt in the church I pray that it helps someone who has been there or is there now. May your Thursday be blessed.
I have this fog and I have loads of anxiety (as of recent). I sometimes wonder if all of those times in years past that I was “casting all my anxieties on God”, I was actually pushing my anxiety way down deep inside and now it’s finally popping back up because I didn’t deal with it properly? Just something I wonder. Like, what’s the exact formula for casting your anxieties on God? Am I doing it correctly? I feel like I didn’t. How do we know when or if God takes our anxiety from us (if we cast it his way)? Maybe I swept it all under the rug instead of actually giving it to God? Or does this verse actually mean we need to deal with our anxieties (and that’s how we cast it on him)? My mind wonders.. obviously..